Thursday, 12 June 2014

hard to say bye bye

Recording Time: 4:06pm

Song: Bye bye
Singer(s): Mariah Carey

" I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever... "


What I really hate about Independence day is that, after every commemoration of how Filipino heroes fought for our freedom that is our cue that the next day we need to go to the cemetery to commemorate the death anniversary of my loving mother.

I remember the day that my brother told me that she had a breast cancer. I was devastated. When my family started talking to her about about her situation, she look at us very strong and courageous. She said that she is ready whatever happens to her. I can't help but cry because I was so helpless that moment.

Its not my mother's battle. Its the family's battle, this is what we declare. We did every single option that we could think of in order to save her however, no matter how strong she is, her body did not cooperate until the day she left us.

Its sad yes but I know she is in the better place right now but like what the line of the song says "Still I’ll give the world to see your face and I’m bragging right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye"

I miss you so much, Mama... I love you.